This past Sunday I visited Lakewood Church. Lakewood Church is a megachurch led by best selling author Pastor Joel Osteen. Pastor Osteen's messages are always encouraging. He talks a lot about having faith and confidence. Something struck me while I was visiting; I came away with the impression that Pastor Joel Osteen might struggle with a lack of confidence himself and his sermons aren't just for his audience but himself. For example, at the end of the service he started crying and said something to the affect that he doesn't deserve all this.
I also noticed that the few times flubbed during his sermon, he took a while to recover. I didn't get the impression of a man that was fully confident in his speaking abilities. I'm convinced God loves irony. How ironic would it be if a man that constantly speaks of being a confident child of God struggles with confidence? How ironic would it be if a man who makes a good living speaking to large audiences isn't entirely confident in his speaking abilities?
I don't know Joel Osteen (obviously) so everything I write is just the impression I got. I, myself, struggle with insecurity and lack of confidence so maybe I was seeing what I wanted to see. But if my impression is right it is an incredible testimony to God's ability to use even our perceived weaknesses.
We all struggle with something. However, that catch is learning how to turn our struggle to something meaningful. Don't let your perceived weaknesses hinder you from doing God's work.